I didnt get any sleep last night.By the time it was 6am i probably had just an hours worth of sleep.
(No thanks to Sejarah)
Which wasnt very good because this whole week i didnt get much sleep at all, cos ive been staying up late studying .
So heres what happened :
My room doors were locked, lights still on, text books sprawled next to me on my bed, i could hear my maid banging on my door to wake me up but i was totally unable to move at all. The only thing i could move were my eyes :/. I could move them left and right. I saw my legs , my arms, everything just the way i left them before i dozed off.I desperately attempted to lift my arms, but they felt heavy.I gave up then cause i have gone through this so many times before and i KNOW whatever i do , however hard i try to move i wont ever get regain control over my body (and voice) again. The weird thing is, ive gone through sleep paralysis twice before and i already knew what was going on, but i still felt scared....i think the most appropriate word to describe how i felt was terrified.
Put yourself in my shoes. How would you feel if you had no control of your body and strage things were happening in your room? i.e. grey kids outside your window, scary voices whispered in your ear, dark shadows near your bed. You would want to get out of your room right? BUT YOU CANT. You cant lift a finger, or shout for help.
Explanation : your body is in a state where you are dreaming (usually really scary nightmares) but you are awake at the same time. Basically, you are living your worst nightmare!
I couldnt help but feel an "evil" presence watching me from the corner of my bed.
I dont see it but its like i just know its a black silhouette .
In previous encounters, i had 3 mischievous looking boys point n laugh at me
from outside the window. They were all grey and black in colour and i also had a voice whisper
"remember me"
three times in a deep , fast, sort of computerized voice during my second encounter.
SHIT SCARY
I was really drowsy so i fell back into a deep deep sleep.
Waking up, hours later to feel unusually energized. It was like i was just ready to do whatever!
I put on my uniform thinking it was still 6am.
Then i remembered what happened and what time it was and i RAN out of my room.
I do not.
I do NOT want to sleep in my room alone anymore.
NO WAY.
What sucks the most is the neurologist who was studying my sleep paralysis episodes is in a coma.(hope he gets better )
So i don't think anything can be done right now. Unlike last year, where i had to stay over at the hospital and brain surf. But i guess i could see another neurologist but then i'd have to go through everything again. With the 1001 questions and explaining and i am just SICK of hospitals.
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i think i visited the hospital more times this year than your whole family has . Combined.
And im just talking about this year.
I mean seriously, i see the nurses everyday to get daily dressings for my surgery wound. The doormen know my name. They know my car. When they see it coming they call me out to tell me my cars outside.
Back to sleep paralysis.
I am certain this thing feeds off fear. So the next time, i'll try my best to relax.
This is just a taste of what sleep paralysis feels like. The video isnt scary :)
Sleep Paralysis will be experienced by one in five people. Victims wake to find that they are paralyzed and unable to move or speak. Many experience frightening visions of demons, shadows, or an old woman known as "The Hag." For others there is simply the unmistakable presence of evil. In extreme cases, these potentially supernatural attacks can occur for decades. Overwhelmed, exhausted, and entirely alone, victims can lead shattered lives dominated by the fear of social stigma. Those who seek medical advice are often misdiagnosed and labeled psychotic or schizophrenic.
its a good read.
